2009

i can't belive it ,in couple of days it will be 2010.
here are some of the things i remember of 2009:

1. a classmate died
2. micheal jackson died
3. i lost and gained 8 kg- i know,i am weird
4. hanna montana the movie and new moon came out
5. i bought all of the twilight serie books(4)
6. i started blogging
7. discovered counting-fun hobbie,that is the geekiest part of it
8. i saw true blood(tv-show)

Every year i'm usually making a list of what i want or have to do.
http://www.43things.com -this is the page where i made my list.


HERE ARE SOME QUOTES I LIKE:

“We will open the book. Its pages are blank. We are going to put words on them ourselves. The book is called Opportunity and its first chapter is New Year's Day.”

“People are so worried about what they eat between Christmas and the New Year, but they really should be worried about what they eat between the New Year and Christmas”

FML

This is one of my favorite sites .
http://www.fmylife.com/

Today, I started feeling really sick and came home from work. My roommate, convinced I had the H1N1 flu and fully fueled by the media, locked me in my room so nothing in the house could be contaminated and went to her friend's house. I have food poisoning and I can't get to the bathroom. FML

Today, I woke up to a stranger in my dorm room. He was naked and was peeing into my water bottle. He kept asking for Chris. I have no idea who Chris is. FML

Today, I found out that my father asked my best friend to marry him. He's 38 and we're 18. She said yes. FML

Today, my girlfriend broke up with me. Her birthday is tomorrow so she sent her new boyfriend to pick up her birthday present. FML

 

feeling exhausted

 Somehow i've managed to be sleepy all the time, i guess i need a break, i'm skipping school tomorrow :)

i'm soo tired, alfter writing this i'm going to sleep cause in the morning i have to run from 1 place to another.School was quite ok- i was late, we had to write about the people who are hard to understand, soon the teacher felt pity for us and she allowed us to leave,i walked home.

I hope i won't get sick cause if i do ,well then i will be in a big trouble. The contest is next week and i have to work with the song- it's not perfect...not yet at least.I want to perform well cause i was the winner last year and if i allow myself a bad performance, than i will hear about it,seriously ...i will. The people will remember the worst and the best singers- i wanna be the ok one cause the best singers are going to sing in a mall ...AND if im one of them, i have to learn a new song ...with just 1 week!!!

it's a lose lose situation- boo hoo

i want to sleep sooo... bye

 

A good day

"Courage is being afraid but going on anyhow. " ~Dan Rather

I actually thought i would never have a good school day, but i have to admit...i was wrong.

Half of the students were ill,so there were only 8 of us.

everything was simple today- talking to everyone,no bad mood,it was kinda fun.

This week is very different from what i thought on sunday- i expected a boring every day week, i've had it  for years. Maybe it was my fault that every day was boring- i wanted excitement but i didn't do anything to have it.

"Speak when you are angry--and you will make the best speech you'll ever regret."

I usually very quiet, i don't have much to say.

i am always busy, even when i'm doing nothing ,i'm busy.Most of the time i'm annoyed ,i don't know why.I guess it's a teen thing.

  When i say something to others i'm gonna regret it later,thinking to myself,gosh...what the hell was i thinking? i'm such a dork :(

  Usually when i'm angry, i'm halfway to being an emo, sometimes i scream - no surprise i have problems with my vocal chords.

emo vibe

“I hate life, I hate death and everything in between just doesn't interest me”

Yeah ,sometimes i feel like this too but only when

a)someone can't stop annoying me

b)someone is makes fun of me

c) i'm sleepy

When that happens i want to read a " dark" book about supernatural,go as far as i possibly can and forget about everything else-it's quite evil .you should try it sometimes...when you're in a bad mood.

UPDATE

The doctor i have to be on the alert for at least 6 months ,wow that's a bit too long time for me to wait.she said that if i would of waited any longer, things would of been much much worse.Now i can sing only about 35 minutes in a day ,if i 'm lucky but well... i'm cheating.
Sometimes my throat hurts but i can't stop singing ,there are too many songs that i want to sing .I'm trying to distract myself but i can't...everything reminds me of singing.
The acting lesson was kinda weird we did somekind of exercises with stares, yeah ,like i said it was weird but we learned new things that are quite fascinating.The next lesson will be about ballet ...i can't wait to be there.I love to be in tartu cause then i don't have to be in elva , i think elva is suffocating...to some people elva is some kind of magical place, well ...i'm not one of them.
I love this fall, tv shows have been wonderful,my favourites are still my favourites and the movies, fame was great,i loved it,the songs were really good.
I'm trying to keep up the ok work with my grades ,this first month i've been trying to do so and i've done a pretty good job with that.The next month is going to be crazy cause i have to be friendly ...yeah ,those who haven't seen me ,well i'm not that friendly ...some people would say that i'm a very mad person.well yeah ,i have issues.

Obsession

I USED TO BE OBSESSED WITH...

There are many people being obsessed with twilight usually they are girls ,teenage girls...well,i've read all of the twilight books, i've seen the movie and i'm definitely going to watch all of the upcoming twilight movies.i really hope that someday there will be the midnight sun too.
I used to be a bit obsessed with the jonas brothers,i've listened to most of their songs but not anymore .They are everywhere we look,it's kinda scary.Can they even sing???i heard they had lost about half of their fans.

Run,mariyse,run

Monday
there will be couple of tests, nothing hard.
at 2 pm i going to tartu ,then i have about 2 hours for shopping then i have to go to the theater ,there will be about 60 school kids-thats a lot of people.We are gonna learn about acting and theatre ,do some exercises-it's soo cool. The lesson is 2 hours long soo with every lesson we learn new things.When the lesson has ended ,i'm gonna go to the bus station and go on a bus and go back to the boringness of elva where i will do my homework while watching tv.

Tuesday
i have to get up pretty early cause i have to take my medicines-ugh, they are disgusting!!!
Then i will go to tartu ...again -i have an urgent appointment ,the doctor will look at my throat and my blood test results, i hope that it's nothing serious.
at 4 pm i'm gonna go to the dentist - an urgent thing as well.
i hope everything is gonna work out well.

Skipped school to...

Doctor said i had blisters in my throat...again. After that there were some blood tests-more than one .I will get the results tomorrow- i hate waiting!!!

afraid

I think i have a problem with my voice,tomarrow i will go and find out whats wrong.I really hope it's not something bad cause i love to sing. I've been singing for soo many years and the thought that i could loose that part of me is just cruel.

Quotes

i like these Quotes very much:


Complaining is good for you as long as you're not complaining to the person you're complaining about.
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I would rather be a coward than brave because people hurt you when you are brave.
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The only courage that matters is the kind that gets you from one moment to the next.
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Change your thoughts and you change your world.
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To live a creative life, we must lose our fear of being wrong.
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To avoid criticism do nothing, say nothing, be nothing.
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The cure for boredom is curiosity. There is no cure for curiosity.
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A mind troubled by doubt cannot focus on the course to victory.
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Feel the fear and do it anyway.

homework

that's the most irritating thing...do your schoolwork on your free time- who the hell came up with THAT.I have study now,but instead of doing what I want ,i'm going to study for couple of minutes.i might break the rules now and then-if i get caught ...well,i guess i can always say my dog ate my homework,naa ,just messing with ya guys.
It's the second week and i do NOT like to wake up sooo early-it's not my style,but well... i'm a gooood girl ,i can do it.
BTW My day was ... fine :)
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i have a new project - i'm going to make a cartoon

pointless post

yesterday everything was awesome,the acting thing went really well.Better than i hoped actually. its good to get away from the people that i see everyday,they are getting annoying.Today everything is good ,i feel much better.i really like to be independent,it makes me feel better.
I'm not a huge fan of unnecessary bonds,it only makes everything more complicated.I'm in a class with my classmates,some of them are nice some of them...not so nice.i cant wait to get out of hier ,all those hours that i am spending with my classmates/well, they make me more nutty then Ive ever been.

change

i NEED a change,the same people, stories,me ...is boring to me. Safe is boring, i know what's going to happen tomorrow cause every day is the same,that's going to change .I must do this now or i never, ever will. I'm going to start learning about acting in theater- i would meet new people and i think it will be good for me to get out of elva.

classmates

The school was boring-as always,what can i say, nothing had changed.Soo i got my ears pierced,it wasn't painful...at first, but i survived ,soo it's not a big deal.People keep telling me that i've changed, your a different person,is it really you???
i must say that i like the attention cause it makes my feel like i'm me, not some kind of girl who looks like a stone .

I feel bad for my classmates, i'm soo mean, i don't know why i can't talk to them normally,it all started when i wanted to get rid of my first class-they were animals, some of them still are .
The weirdest thing is ,that i really don't give a damn about what my classmates say about me,sometimes i just want to laugh.My classmates are the best at everything ,they are awesome but i just can't talk with them ,i've tried but no ,nothing comes out of mouth .the weird thing is that i'm afraid of them,i don't want them to turn to one of my nightmares-my first classmates.I'm afraid that they will and they think i'm thinking that i'm too good to speak to them-that not the truth ,i think it's the other way around.I'm probably never going be their real friend- i really don't think that's possible.

School

OMG!!!!
3 months are over-that was too fast. I don't like to be bored and school is quite boring.it's like i'm locked up in there -soo sad.
i gonna meet my friends and others- you know the ones who could not stop annoying you .

Diet

School is starting soon and i want to look my best, so i'm on a diet, but it's hard cause like eating hamburgers,fries and pizzas ,they are sooo good.There are some facts 1)exercise is not my kind of thing,the start is always hard.
2)no sweets,well,sometimes i cheat
3)say no,to everything you like or you'll regret it later
4)you have to drink ,a lot,many people like to drink diet coke,but it's blocking your ability to burn fat, making you extremely hungry and tired.so i guess i have to drink water.

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Sooo,I'm gonna start on Monday with my diet.I'm gonna write about it every day. It's a Challenge for me ,so i take it like a test.DO i FAIL or PASS, it's not gonna be easy but i will do my best.

Sagittarius

I am a sagittarius ,i'm born on the fourth of december.

Who am i ???

Hey,my name is Marilyse, I'm 14 years old and i live in Estonia- i know that many people haven't heard of this country, it's small ,theres about 1,5 million people living hier and the weather is quite cold.I'm a Music Addict- i'm always listening to music, i don't like the silence cause then I'm kinda like over thinking things-that's soo annoying,i just can't focus when the only thing I'm hearing is the same old silence.I just love music ,i CAN live without music about 15 minutes ,after that i'm already thinking about hot new songs usually that's all that i listen to cause everytime i hear something new ,i listen to it for hours and the next day when i hear it i feel like throwing up, i can't explain it. I like pop,rock,hip hop,rnb and trance- so i mostly listen to everything i can find or hear.I like to be a little different from others ,i just like attention and there is nothing wrong with that.So... i am different,good,grudge-holder,truth-seeker,music lover,movie lover,honest,excellent listener,understanding,bad,evil,naive,right,curious,lucky,boring,crazy,free,
invisible,mysterious,sad,alone,weird,wrong,everything that i wanted to be, me