Who made a fool of herself ? ME...WHY?

School was quite boring ,i found out that the diet i'm on is messing with my concentration .
Before i went to the studio ,i had an odd idea that messing up might be good for me and i thought that it could cure me from the paranoia.I thought that would make a little mistake on my performance but when it was my turn to sing, i changed my mind.I really should have been on the last rehearsal : when i started singing ,the volume of my voice was too loud, my ears still hurts and on high notes it was unbearable and then i had a thought that now is the time to make the mistake ,it's funny cause everything stupid that happens to me went through my mind just seconds before i do it .I find it very interesting but when the mistake came ,i felt so much better.It was like my shelf was destroyed. I hope that everyone in the room will remember it for years cause it was a bang , a bang named marilyse. Do i regret it... no

 I think it really helped me, i didn't care at all and i 'm quite happy and i think i will be mari-liis again .Marilyse was just a shelf ,i needed to protect myself . I've been playing marilyse for 4 years ,it's definitely difficult to be myself. I like to analyze people and i always saw the lonely girls and it like a mystery ,that i couldn't resist figuring out. Now that i' ve solved the riddle ,i can finally start a new chapter of Mari-Liis.

Unfortunately my ears hurt ,a lot ,even the quite computer noise is too loud, i hope that one of the didn't break (there is coming some kind of fluid), i will definitely go to the doctors tomorrow.