me, driving a car... what?

today was a wonderful day, filled with wonders.
 today i got my first driving lesson ,it was much more thrilling than i thought it would be. i thought that it would be like really dangerous but there was no accident caused by me. so i guess i did well.

the plan

School will begin for the 9th time for me and this time i have an escape plan : the event will be shorter to me because i will skip some parts of it. i live near the school and i will go near my school and sit on a bench and when i see the first group of people ,whose destination is school ,i will walk to school behind them. Then i am going to wait my class to arrive in front of the math classroom. if they ask questions about the absence of me, i would say that i forgot and that i just came here right away -this is my master plan.

I really hate the first days of school because they are awkward in essence and i can already feel the anxiety ,that never leaves, it just hides in my subconscious world and gives me the claustrophobic vibe ,when there are people ,who i used to know. i usually walk away in a fast tempo or hide.

i fell asleep and i was surrounded by all the 9th graders ,we are near the police station ,in front of us ,there is this river that in real life is as big as in my dream. There was a line and i was the next one to jump to the river, i said that i was not going to do that and they started talk like ''yeah ,we should of know''  but somehow i did it and i was happy: this was the weird dream i had one day ,i've had dreams like this for the whole summer.they bug me and i need an appointment to the madhouse but i can't because my doctor is on vacation.


 

fainting and weather

 it was 8am ,when my young, selfish brother began to annoy me with his naruto-related music. I opened my eyes and when my feet touched the ground ,the light showed itself to me and i fainted. when i opened my confused eyes and found myself on the ground with the stuff that couple of seconds ago were on the table. for several seconds before and after the fainting ,i felt how my skin was numb and tingly .After i was totally in control of my body , i felt a slight pain : the corner of my table scratched my back , so now there is a 10 cm long red line.
 i went to bed and started talking to myself about how evil my brother is (sometimes i'm amazed how easy it is).at the end of my monologue, dear brother of mine started to sing and i thought it would be nice of me to give him advice  after all the bad things i said about him.i opened my door to do  so and then the light hit me again... and my face met the floor again.

 hot  inferno

 Later this day i went to tartu , the word that would describe the whole "trip" would be ...ok : the weather was too hot for me ( i like the cold climate more ) and there were no wow-worthy clothes,only the boring ones . The weather got so hot that we want to get out of tartu.
  Soon we saw the sign that informed us that we are now in elva, the lake verevi caught my attention ,there were many people .I haven't been there for about 3 years and while passing the cars in the parking lot, i wished that summer was over and people won't go to the beach (Nothing happens unless first we dream.) .Before we arrived to our finale destination ,we went to a store near by. I wanted to stay in the car and i started reading a book , next to our car there was a kid ,who listened to the radio :reading and listening to the music was a bad combination ,especially ,when eminems new song started playing (love the way you lie ), the words were so bad/odd/dark and soon my parents showed up and with seconds we were home.
 Later that day i knew i tried to be outside because it was one of those days ,when there were no pair of eyes watching us ,when we play with our dog( sometimes bella runs away and then we scream and run like idiots)   .Sometimes it feels like we are some lame entertainment to to people ,who work at enics.sometimes they even talk to us but most of the time they just smoke or laugh. I was really happy that we were alone because it's such a rare occasion. liberty rules!!!
         one thing is sure -  this day belonged to the brown/red colored people.

ok

lately pop music has given me the feeling of puking and i feel how my brain is being fried ... now i am listening to classical music. it might seem as a crime among teens but it's like a therapy to my ears- sound therapy ...
i feel so much better.






http://www.brainleadersandlearners.com/multiple-intelligences/musical/the-brain-on-music/

can she talk?

I spent a week with my grandparents and my grandmother came to elva today .She said that people asked if i ever talk and go somewhere without a book in my hand.
 I heard from my mother that my granny said to her that i don't talk at all.

I can talk but i have nothing to say.That is something that an introvert ,(like me) can understand.

movies

the summer has been very long and i've seen some movies.

1. eclipse
2. interview with the vampire
3. across the universe
4. x-men
5. x-men2
6. evita
7. whip it
8. taking woodstock
9. youth in revolt
10. evita
11. valentine's day