UPDATE

The doctor i have to be on the alert for at least 6 months ,wow that's a bit too long time for me to wait.she said that if i would of waited any longer, things would of been much much worse.Now i can sing only about 35 minutes in a day ,if i 'm lucky but well... i'm cheating.
Sometimes my throat hurts but i can't stop singing ,there are too many songs that i want to sing .I'm trying to distract myself but i can't...everything reminds me of singing.
The acting lesson was kinda weird we did somekind of exercises with stares, yeah ,like i said it was weird but we learned new things that are quite fascinating.The next lesson will be about ballet ...i can't wait to be there.I love to be in tartu cause then i don't have to be in elva , i think elva is suffocating...to some people elva is some kind of magical place, well ...i'm not one of them.
I love this fall, tv shows have been wonderful,my favourites are still my favourites and the movies, fame was great,i loved it,the songs were really good.
I'm trying to keep up the ok work with my grades ,this first month i've been trying to do so and i've done a pretty good job with that.The next month is going to be crazy cause i have to be friendly ...yeah ,those who haven't seen me ,well i'm not that friendly ...some people would say that i'm a very mad person.well yeah ,i have issues.

Obsession

I USED TO BE OBSESSED WITH...

There are many people being obsessed with twilight usually they are girls ,teenage girls...well,i've read all of the twilight books, i've seen the movie and i'm definitely going to watch all of the upcoming twilight movies.i really hope that someday there will be the midnight sun too.
I used to be a bit obsessed with the jonas brothers,i've listened to most of their songs but not anymore .They are everywhere we look,it's kinda scary.Can they even sing???i heard they had lost about half of their fans.

Run,mariyse,run

Monday
there will be couple of tests, nothing hard.
at 2 pm i going to tartu ,then i have about 2 hours for shopping then i have to go to the theater ,there will be about 60 school kids-thats a lot of people.We are gonna learn about acting and theatre ,do some exercises-it's soo cool. The lesson is 2 hours long soo with every lesson we learn new things.When the lesson has ended ,i'm gonna go to the bus station and go on a bus and go back to the boringness of elva where i will do my homework while watching tv.

Tuesday
i have to get up pretty early cause i have to take my medicines-ugh, they are disgusting!!!
Then i will go to tartu ...again -i have an urgent appointment ,the doctor will look at my throat and my blood test results, i hope that it's nothing serious.
at 4 pm i'm gonna go to the dentist - an urgent thing as well.
i hope everything is gonna work out well.

Skipped school to...

Doctor said i had blisters in my throat...again. After that there were some blood tests-more than one .I will get the results tomorrow- i hate waiting!!!

afraid

I think i have a problem with my voice,tomarrow i will go and find out whats wrong.I really hope it's not something bad cause i love to sing. I've been singing for soo many years and the thought that i could loose that part of me is just cruel.

Quotes

i like these Quotes very much:


Complaining is good for you as long as you're not complaining to the person you're complaining about.
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I would rather be a coward than brave because people hurt you when you are brave.
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The only courage that matters is the kind that gets you from one moment to the next.
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Change your thoughts and you change your world.
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To live a creative life, we must lose our fear of being wrong.
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To avoid criticism do nothing, say nothing, be nothing.
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The cure for boredom is curiosity. There is no cure for curiosity.
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A mind troubled by doubt cannot focus on the course to victory.
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Feel the fear and do it anyway.

homework

that's the most irritating thing...do your schoolwork on your free time- who the hell came up with THAT.I have study now,but instead of doing what I want ,i'm going to study for couple of minutes.i might break the rules now and then-if i get caught ...well,i guess i can always say my dog ate my homework,naa ,just messing with ya guys.
It's the second week and i do NOT like to wake up sooo early-it's not my style,but well... i'm a gooood girl ,i can do it.
BTW My day was ... fine :)
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i have a new project - i'm going to make a cartoon

pointless post

yesterday everything was awesome,the acting thing went really well.Better than i hoped actually. its good to get away from the people that i see everyday,they are getting annoying.Today everything is good ,i feel much better.i really like to be independent,it makes me feel better.
I'm not a huge fan of unnecessary bonds,it only makes everything more complicated.I'm in a class with my classmates,some of them are nice some of them...not so nice.i cant wait to get out of hier ,all those hours that i am spending with my classmates/well, they make me more nutty then Ive ever been.

change

i NEED a change,the same people, stories,me ...is boring to me. Safe is boring, i know what's going to happen tomorrow cause every day is the same,that's going to change .I must do this now or i never, ever will. I'm going to start learning about acting in theater- i would meet new people and i think it will be good for me to get out of elva.

classmates

The school was boring-as always,what can i say, nothing had changed.Soo i got my ears pierced,it wasn't painful...at first, but i survived ,soo it's not a big deal.People keep telling me that i've changed, your a different person,is it really you???
i must say that i like the attention cause it makes my feel like i'm me, not some kind of girl who looks like a stone .

I feel bad for my classmates, i'm soo mean, i don't know why i can't talk to them normally,it all started when i wanted to get rid of my first class-they were animals, some of them still are .
The weirdest thing is ,that i really don't give a damn about what my classmates say about me,sometimes i just want to laugh.My classmates are the best at everything ,they are awesome but i just can't talk with them ,i've tried but no ,nothing comes out of mouth .the weird thing is that i'm afraid of them,i don't want them to turn to one of my nightmares-my first classmates.I'm afraid that they will and they think i'm thinking that i'm too good to speak to them-that not the truth ,i think it's the other way around.I'm probably never going be their real friend- i really don't think that's possible.